Best Gardenia Perfume – review of gardenia perfumes, are they the best?

Best Gardenia Perfumes – what is a good gardenia perfume?

gardenia perfume billie holidaySaturday morning was the best kind of morning – rainy.  The general routine is, the twins wake me up, I stagger downstairs and pour them two bowls of cereal, let the dog out, get the coffee going, and go back to bed.  The sound of them puttering around downstairs, the rain beating on the window, the smell of coffee, and drowsing under the comforter is a pretty great combo.  Of course, there are drawbacks to leaving them unattended.  Last weekend Hecate put honey on the doorknobs.  Also, she drew a smiling clown on the wall, with a ballpoint pen.Our conversation went like this:

Me (exasperated): “Don´t draw on the walls!  You´re five years old!  That´s ridiculous!  Only babies draw on walls!  Are you a baby?!?”

Hecate (thoughtfully): “Cavemans draw on walls.”

Well, I think we can safely say both of us learned a lot from that exchange.  Anyway, this Saturday, March the first, when I went outside, there it was – the faint, unmistakable smell of spring on the way.  I admired the snowdrops and the very early hyacinths.

We got off to a rocky start fragrance-wise when I put on Serge Lutens´ Santal Blanc and realized that for some reason, it was wrong.  Wrong, wrong, wrong.  I tried to mitigate the pencil smell with some Barbara Bui, which sounded like a good idea but resulted in complaints in the car (“you smell yucky,” was Buckethead´s verdict.)

Things improved mid-afternoon when I got Sara’s package (thanks, Sara!); she´d said in my Gardenia post awhile back that she´d send me some Yves Rocher Gardenia, which she thought was a really good dupe of the flower.  Well, she sent me a whole bunch of other things, too, including several other Yves, and several other gardenia scents.

Yves Rocher Gardenia perfume (which I think is properly called Pur Desir de Gardenia) is, in my opinion, a fine dupe of the flower.  I tried to conjure up my smell-memory of the gardenia flower, and I think the YR had pretty much the perfect amount of balance between the creamy white notes and the stinky cheese.It was also (blessedly) absent the common, balancing tuberose note.  It doesn´t last forever, but while it´s there, it´s great.(It occurred to me, smelling it, that I can´t have a perfect dupe, because part of my olfactory satisfaction is sticking my nose — literally — in the gardenia flower, for a feel of those velvety petals.)I know several of you complained about a peculiar, plastic-y note in the YR gardenia shower gel, but I didn´t smell it here.

Jo Malone Vintage Gardenia was a bit of a surprise.   JM and I don´t seem to get along; several of her fragrances wear a bit sharpish on me.  Vintage Gardenia perfume, however, was a keeper — a pretty, pleasantly spicy take on gardenia.  Notes are: gardenia, tuberose, cardamom, sandalwood, incense and myrrh.  I think if she´d nixed the tuberose and amped up the incense and cardamom, I´d have been in heaven.

Chanel Gardenia brought back all sorts of memories, as I worked through half a bottle years ago when I was trying very hard to be somebody else.  It´s sparkling and greener than I remembered – I get tuberose and jasmine and probably some other florals as well, resting on gentle musk.It is a lovely fragrance; however, it doesn´t particularly call up the flower for me as a gardenia perfume.

Elizabeth Taylor Gardenia perfume – and thanks so much for taping that vial shut!  In fact, with all these sample vials of gardenia on my desk, the air in the office is getting a little close.  The opening is some rough road – sweet, sharp, green (LOTV?) and plastic-smelling.  It´s not a scrubber – it´s sort of cheap-soapy, but I´ve smelled worse, believe me.  Then I get a mildly indolic tuberose/gardenia.  This has a number of positive reviews on MUA and Basenotes, but to me it is way too sweet and too green to be a good gardenia soliflore.  Still … if you are a total gardenia/tuberose freak, and you see a bottle at TJ Maxx, where apparently it can be found for chump change, knock yourself out.

Demeter Gardenia perfume – here, let me crib from their website: “Indole is the culprit (!) in Gardenia, in the sense of it causes the rotting meat that some flowers of this type leave behind. Without Indole, you get a big, lovely, creamy, happy flower. Consequently, Demeter´s Gardenia is a unlike traditional gardenia perfume. Demeter´s Gardenia is the delicate scent of fresh blooming gardenias still on the bush. Instead of being overpowering, we have created a classic, rich and creamy floral scent.”Hmmmm. To which I respond, are you sure? Because maybe it´s my own natural stink, but I swear, it smells cheesy to me, and not tuberose-tainted, which makes me happy.  It doesn´t last long, though, and leaves me with a faint, unpleasant ashtray note on the skin.  Next, please.

Tom Ford Velvet Gardenia – I went back and re-sniffed this since I was exploring gardenias.  It was nice to smell on its own, rather than blasting through the Tom Ford Collection.  Maybe it´s my skin, but those TFs can be overly sweet.  Velvet Gardenia starts out sweeter and more multi-floral than I’d like.  The drydown, however, is a smell to behold, and having sniffed a bunch o´ gardenia perfume, my respect for this has grown.  It´s more complicated than the others – much deeper, certainly richer, with a honeyed aspect.It also has a note of the Tom Ford-ade, that Black Orchid base (did anyone ever confirm that some/most of the Collection were drafts for the original Black Orchid, or was that just rumor?)  Here, though, the piercing sweetness of gardenia actually works beautifully within the framework of incense, labdanum and other florals.  The stinky cheese is there but muted.  I wouldn´t call this a gardenia soliflore; although gardenia´s the dominant floral, I get a lot of jasmine.  A little of this goes a very, very long way on me, and I think a heavy overspray of this might kill me.But it is, in its own, louche way, quite lovely.

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18 years ago

Hi March! Thanks for the great reviews! I’m honored my package generated this whole article and especially glad you enjoyed it. I have so much fun reading your perfume writing.

I have never actually smelled a Gardenia, but it’s my Mom’s favorite scent. She had one or two gardenia perfumes. When I got into perfume, all the great info available and friendly swappers allowed me to gather a HUGE sample collection of all the Gardenias I could find for her. I still don’t get Kai. 🙂 I love gardenia, and make it my duty to regularly supply Mom with Chanel Gardenia, Jo Malone, and Annick Goutal Gardenia Passion. I know for a fact she uses Gardenia perfumes as a room spray every morning when she goes to her computer and starts work. But I can’t wear any ‘true’ Gardenias myself! Only the Chanel– always smells, in my mind, like a picture of a fantastical PINK Gardenia. You know what I mean. 🙂

Yves Rocher are startlingly good for the price, if you like soliflores. To me, YR Gardenia smells like the other fragrances people TELL me are the truest gardenias.

However, I grew up with lilacs and peonies. I found YR Lilac is very well done, and peony even better. The lilac, unfortunately, is the lilac FLOWER, NOT the smell of the whole plant. This is a failing in every lilac fragrance I’ve ever encountered. In nature, you can’t stick your face into lilacs without also smelling the leaves. But this is a good one, especially if combined with a decent green/watery scent that’s NOT fresh or ozonic. Incidentally, their bamboo is also spot on. If you like Peonies, YR is really nice and a great price.

Don’t ever pay full price for YR. They’re ALWAYS going on sale. 🙂

March, I always think I smell tobacco in the JM. My imagination? Is there something in there that would give that impression to an untrained nose? Incense, maybe? I never noticed before that was one of the notes.

Also, your reaction to Demeter and (ack) the Liz Taylor are identical to mine. Demeter is full of indoles, whatever they claim. Lol. I’m so sorry I inflicted that LT on you– I also read positive reviews and thought I was missing something. Now it’s in my ‘give away’ box. Not even the ‘swap’ box. Just the ‘give away anywhere you can get rid of it’ box. 🙂 Anyone want a bottle of Liz Taylor Gardenia? lol.

minette
18 years ago

well, my favorite part of this post is definitely the exchange between you and hecate. that was priceless. old soul in a young body. best of luck. it should be fun.

for gardenia i seem to prefer annick goutal’s gardenia passion. and i gets lot of gardenia out of songes, as well. and of course, my favorite is the real thing – i also love to stick my nose inside the flowers. and i love the visual contrast between the thick creamy white petals and the dark shiny green leaves.

BBliss
18 years ago
Reply to  March

How lucky to have your wish granted! Yep, small children do not leave room for boredom, or any other self-centered emotion…but they are so clever and funny – and in such blinding flashes. Hecate sounds like a gem.

And so does that Vintage Gardenia which I just read the notes on somewhere else…Allure? Though generally I prefer my gardenias on the bush, or floating in a bowl on the table.

18 years ago
Reply to  March

This is so funny: coincidence. My husband and I had a debate in my Dr. office on Friday because there was an orchid so well done I went up to smell it, was confused it didn’t smell, and walked away without realizing it was fake. He said he knew it was fake instantly, because of the thick, waxy, dark leaves that were a little dusty. I kept trying to explain to him that’s EXACTLY what orchid leaves look like and I’d never seen such a good fake. I just thought it had gotten dusty like all my houseplants. 🙂

Malena
18 years ago

i think i love gardenia mostly in summer when it blooms in the heat – i´m like that with tuberose as well, carnal flower i wear strictly in summer.
AG songes has gardenia as well, hasn´t it? it´s a nice scent, too, so is gardenia passion, but that one can get too sweet for me.
i should dig out my sample of the TF gardenia – or probably i shouldn´t as i might like it & i´ve already TF noir de noir & moss breches on my to-buy list.
a sample of NM gardenia for men has arrived a week ago as well (so has rose for men) but i haven´t had time to test them, yet.

Robin
18 years ago

But must know: did Hecate have an equally good reason for putting honey on the doorknobs?

JM Vintage Gardenia was a surprise to me too. I actually ended up buying it, and it layers nicely w/ all kinds of other stuff. Would love to know who the perfumer was.

Robin
18 years ago
Reply to  March

Well, I don’t know why, but it seems “better” that the honey wasn’t purposely applied to the doorknobs?

I would love Black Vetyver Cafe if it lasted longer. Pom Noir was nicely done but not my cup of tea. But in general, I’d say I don’t rate the line as highly as many people seem to. Even Vintage Gardenia, you know, it’s just too sweet…I like it, but I like it way better layered w/ something else.

Denise
18 years ago

Haven’t tried any of these; just wanted to chime in and echo: Hecate is completely adorable and clever. Loved that story.

Tigs / Erin
18 years ago

Just chiming in here to say that I love that whole exchange: your question, Hecate’s answer, your weary analysis. I am just starting this stage with M – telling her she doesn’t want to do whatever she is doing because she is a big girl now. All I have succeeded in doing is making her angry about wearing her diaper (although I have not managed to toilet train her…) *sigh* Is Hecate your nemesis? I call M “Nem” sometimes. My mother, who is otherwise a lovely, gentle woman, laughs maniacally everytime my daughter becomes intensely defiant. Payback time.

I have the Yves Rocher Gardenia shower gel. I think it’s *fine*, but I prefer the peony (Bambo’s good, too.) Never tried the EdTs.

And, oh, those paper-marking days. The time I will always remember is the introductory survey course final papers I had to mark where 80% of my students revealed that Hills Like White Elephants is a discussion about ABORTION! An ABORTION, can you believe it?!? It reminds me of that Onion article my brother sent me: “Freshman Term Paper Finds Something Totally New About Silas Marner”.

Admin
18 years ago

Gardenia is tough. My favorite is still Isabey Gardenia, but I’m doing the SIP Lady Day tomorrow, which is themed around gardenia, right?

I remeber the cavemen days. I finally gave up and just let them have at the walls in their own room, then painted over it all once they outgrew it, only to have the oldest decide to do some artwork with a big black magic marker when he was in his teens.. Well, he got to clean that one up. /:)

Admin
18 years ago
Reply to  March

Six coats of primer and about six coats of paint about covered it up.

Joan
18 years ago

Just saw this on Scented Salamander = From Dolly Parton’s new album “Backwoods Barbie” – the song- So You Ask Me Not To Wear Cologne”

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XWFJ8tD0hm0

Should she give up the guy or the perfume??:-?

Debbie
18 years ago

….must get a gardenia sampler at some point….

We lived in Louisiana for five years when I was young, then three months in South Carolina. I can remember huge, gorgeous, white flowers with a divine fragrance. I love the velvety feel of their petals too.

Flor
18 years ago

I really love the smell of fresh gardenia flowers, it’s one of my favorites, along with “Lady of the Night” (I think it’s called?). They have it here in Brazil a lot and the smell in the air is just breathtaking. Anyway, I have a hard time with gardenia perfumes. Many of them nauseate me. I don’t have any at the moment because I just haven’t found “it” yet, but I’m still looking. My sister loves Kai, and to me it’s a beautiful gardenia on her. She wears it in moderation and it suits her well. Maybe I’ll love Cruel Gardenia?

kathleen
18 years ago

I enjoy a number of the JM fragrances (including Pom Noir 😮 ) I wear the body creme with most. It tends to vamp up the spices and incense. Also, on me, the floral fades quicker than anything else. The Vintage Gardenia on a summer night is lovely. The bees like it too. I was spraying it on near an open window and was distracted by some buzzing. I looked up to see that quite the mini swarm had gathered to enjoy the gardenia with me.

kathleen
18 years ago
Reply to  March

They aren’t so attracted after it is on, though. It’s just the initial spraying that seems to get their attention.

erin k.
18 years ago
Reply to  kathleen

for me, it’s my cats that i attract.

you should’ve seen them when i tried Bal a Versailles for the first time last week. one cat freaked out on it so much, that after i finally got her to stop licking my arm, she sat next to me for at least 20 minutes just staring at my arm.

i guess beasts recognize each other! :d

8-x

Debbie
18 years ago
Reply to  erin k.

I want to get Yatagan for just that purpose. Another chapter in my book, “Fun Times with Cats”.
:d

:-l

Musette
18 years ago
Reply to  erin k.

OMG! Stop! You’re killing me! BaV as cat-attractant! I have made it a point to NEVER read a Posse post whilst drinking anything, for just this reason!

It is a beast of a fragrance, though. Makes me want to go snatch some big ol’ strappin’ man up and….well, you know..

Louise
18 years ago
Reply to  Musette

I do know :d

Debbie
18 years ago
Reply to  March

(blushing) Well, yes.

Judith
18 years ago

Have to admit that I’m not a Gardenia girl. I like Chanel’s just fine (though I never wear it), but it doesn’t smell like Gardenia to me. Need to try that Lady Day, though (I’m convinced that somewhere out there is the SIP for me, though I haven’t found it yet; Black Rosette, which you would think would work, um, doesn’t).

Go Hecate!

Elle
18 years ago

Brilliant child!
I really, really have to at some point explore the YR line. Love the JM VG and am sorry to hear that the Demeter doesn’t work – would be such a nice budget balancer. I could somehow justify a purchase of a full bottle of SIP’s Lady Day by considering how much I’d saved going w/ a Demeter first…or something like that. Could you run that by Hecate and have her come up w/ a decent justification for me? Pre-coffee brain is not up to it yet. I have never been able to determine why Chanel Gardenia doesn’t work for me, but it doesn’t. It’s a beautiful scent, but maybe lacking enough base notes for my tastes. Adore the TF.

18 years ago
Reply to  March

I think this is pretty apt– although I’ve only tried one or two l’occitane. I’ve been wondering about their neroli and iris, two of my favorite scents.

The main thing about YR that gets my attention is the several true soliflores. I adore soliflores. 🙂 Mainly because I adore flowers, I suppose, but don’t enjoy ‘floral’ perfumes as much as ones where I can identify a single flower.

Other than that, I think they’re an less expensive pleasure– a nice bargain. I’m the opposite on the Demeters. I ordered a ton of the samples when they changes sizes. Really neat line, and some are great, but some seem too weak, especially if I already know the scent, like their LOTV. Myrrh, Neroli, Ylang, for instance, I can hardly smell at all. But flower show and pruning shears are spectacular.

So for what they do, I like the YR better. But I love the idea of Demeter, I wish some of them were a teensy bit better quality. I like some of their scents so much and the range is so spectacular, I wish some of them were stronger.

Musette
18 years ago
Reply to  Elle

Elle,

I’m so glad to know you love JM’s VG – I love it too! Alas, I cannot wear it any longer – I developed an allergic reaction to it: it makes me SNEEZE! a LOT! I thought I was imagining things but I was in Saks awhile back, chatting with one of my peeps and the SA at the JM outpost sprayed some VG for a lady. I was about 15 ft away and it’s not like she did a room-spray thing…but the next thing I knew I was sneezing like it was ragweed!

Hope that’s not a harbinger of things to come, as I love gardenia!

ps. is Lady Day still being sold? I thought they had some legal issues there…

Elle
18 years ago
Reply to  Musette

It still is available, but currently is just going by the name “Untitled” and is not available on their website. It is available at the boutique, however, and you can call and order it. I’d be SO upset if it had been d/ced like Heroine was.

Musette
18 years ago
Reply to  March

So, SO glad I’m not the only one – only I have problems with Hermessence. Not Hermes, which I fling off the tongue with abandon.

Hermessence, for some reason I first read as… Hermanessence, which has stuck and now always brings to mind Herman Munster, which makes absolutely no sense..but eyeball tricks are weasles that way!

Hope JCE doesn’t read this!

Musette
18 years ago
Reply to  March

JCE’s gonna kill us for sure!
=))

Musette
18 years ago
Reply to  March

I think there’s a spicy note in there that’s causing the sneeze. I have tried other gardenias since, with no problem. There are a couple of scents that really irk my sinuses. Fresh/index Pom Anise is one – it actually brings on a sinus headache…and now this thing with JM VG…luckily most other fragrances are either lovely or neutral – no sensory attacks!

Musette
18 years ago
Reply to  March

I know, dangit…and I just LOVED that scent and wore it with great glee for awhile. Maybe my senses willl come to their senses and let me enjoy it again.

Louise
18 years ago

My son’s early wall art was largely confined to newly painted surfaces. Something about the virgin canvas.

I am now convinced that I’ll never meet the Gardenia for me. Sad, but in acceptance there lies comfort :)>-

sylvia
18 years ago

im not generally a white-flower kind of gal, but i recently smelled red flower’s spanish gardenia line (more specifically my housemate has the conditioner and the lotion) and i was in heaven! super creamy with a smidge of indole and with none of that marc jacobs-ness that frankly im bored to tears by.

sylvia
18 years ago
Reply to  March

i haven’t smelled it, but i loooove cardamom. i used to buy cardamom flavored chewing gum but i havent been able to find it in years.

Lee
18 years ago

My neighbours’ twins swap clothes to trick the staff at their playgroup. They’re three. Twins *are* preternaturally sophisticated (though these two boys also love talking about their willarks – their word – and trying to get naked at every opportunity. They’re still boy toddlers…)

Love your story. As for gardenia – it remains an impenetrable mystery to me!

erin k.
18 years ago
Reply to  March

real gardenias have such a strong smell, i imagine that your memories of encountering the plant would dictate how you feel about it, even more so than with other, less dramatic scents.

i’m a southern girl, so for me, gardenia is all hot summer nights and vacations and gorgeous antebellum mansions with oak-lined driveways. i find it very intoxicating – if you’re sitting on a porch with gardenia bushes nearby, you can get sort of high off the fumes!

8-x

MarkDavid
18 years ago

Im not at all a fan of Gardenia. In fact, I would have said I hated them. That is, until Neil Morris insisted on sending me a sample of his Gardenia [for men] and I flipped for it – hard. Its out of this world amazing. Its very androgynous, but definitely wearable for men – geared toward them in fact. Its a bit reminiscent of a CDG in its avant-garde approach and feel – Gardenias in a Garage with a lawnmower that just cut grass is how I would best describe it. Its worth a sniff. Shot to my top 10 list real fast.

-MD

kathleen
18 years ago
Reply to  March

I do too. Just “jonesing” to get my hands on some of the Neil Morrises. Was hoping that TPC would be getting them in. But I may not be able to hang on much longer!

MarkDavid
18 years ago
Reply to  kathleen

You can always call Neil for samples –

617-267-2315

he’s an absolute pleasure to talk to!!

Admin
18 years ago
Reply to  kathleen

We are getting some in, I hope they’ll be here this week or next!

Kim
18 years ago

There is something about twins that is amazing – like there are two brains in synch, somehow plotting their twin logic together. And the logic that they have for their explorations and adventures is always clear, definite, and indisputable. Spending time with my twin nephews (5 years old like yours) always leaves me in awe (as well as exhausted!). Don’t know how you do it AND do this blog!

I agree with ‘you smell great’ above about Chanel – but it is the Gardenia that is somehow not me. I love all the Beaux Chanel’s, and I love wearing the Gardenia, even though it is somehow not me – for that I turn to No 5 and Bois des Iles. But Gardenia is so lovely, even if, as March says, it doesn’t call up the flower for me.

Debbie
18 years ago
Reply to  March

Watch that kid, March. That comment left me in awe of her reasoning abilities, being so young. Make sure she doesn’t become bored in school. (A problem with gifted kids, and she definitely may be one.)

Debbied
18 years ago
Reply to  March

“or the authorities”? =))

I’m sure it will be the teachers. 🙂

erin k.
18 years ago

well, when i was about 5, mom turned over one of the arm cushions on our 70’s white velour sofa and found a strange, unintelligible pencil drawing all over it. she showed me the cushion and asked me what it was, and i burst out crying and said, “it’s new york city!” i … have no idea why. but i turned out to be an artist, so there you go…

the velvet gardenia is sounding really good to me, stinky cheese and all! i love real gardenias, and i love Black Orchid, so this is definitely on my “to try” list.

two random perfumes i’ve just tried that have been mentioned in previous posts:

first, Santal de Mysore. loved it! lee, you’re totally right about this, it is a wonderful comfort scent – although i find it sexy at the same time – and the spices turn this wood scent intriguingly gourmand.

second, Bandit. crazy, but beautiful – i loved it! debbie, if you’re reading this, i didn’t get anything sharp from it, but i did get a green chypre, even more so than the leather, and a lot of patchouli. i’m wondering if either the patch or the myrrh might’ve gone wrong on your skin?

8-x

kathleen
18 years ago
Reply to  March

Oh My God, BO is Black Orchid! That is not how I’ve been reading it.

Debbie
18 years ago
Reply to  erin k.

How did you know I’d be reading this? 🙂 Yep, I am here.

What was the top note(s) in it that you noticed? That’s what struck me over the head. Myrhh can go either way on me, but by and large it seems sweet to me–the question being whether it’s sickly sweet or blended with other sweet things to create an overall impression. I don’t think it was patch either, because alot of Neil Morris’ fragrances have that it them, so that can’t be it. However, my ears perked up when you said “chypre”. I love Jicky, but a lot of those I don’t because my nose clogs up and/or the smell seems like just too much. What is in that for the topnotes? I’ll have to go check, but if you know…..

:-l Zombie Debbie (sick with a cold)

erin k.
18 years ago
Reply to  Debbie

oh no! i’m just getting over a throat infection, the bug has been going around like crazy here. hope you feel better soon!

the top in Bandit is all about the galbanum. the “green monster” as i’ve seen someone here describe it. that could very easily have been what went wrong on you – it’s a tricky note. in Bandit it started out as fresh leaves and grass kind of smell, but then got kind of tangy as it mixed with the chypre elements in the base.

have you tried Chanel No. 19? it’s got a big dose in galbanum in the top, too, and i have to be careful not to put too much on or it’ll give me a headache.

8-x

Debbie
18 years ago
Reply to  erin k.

Galbanum! Okay, thanks for that warning. Whew, what a note. I may have smelled No. 19 years and years ago, but I can’t remember. Um, knowing that it might share anything with Bandit, I don’t think I’ll be searching out that one.

:-l

18 years ago

Gardenia? Not a fave for me. But I love the description of your Saturday…:)

18 years ago
Reply to  March

actually it was the latter…

sweetlife
18 years ago

P.S. Have you tried Annick Goutal’s Gardenia, and Gardenia Passion? Somehow they never seem to come my way.

sweetlife
18 years ago

And thus we learn how Hecate earned her alias… 😉 *Love* the caveman comment! That girl is on her way to fame and success.

Have to give the Yves Rocher a spin the next time they send me an email about giving away all their stuff to me (with FREE GIFTS!).

Anthony
18 years ago

I just wanted to quickly say your description of Saturday morning was amazing. 🙂

Lee
18 years ago
Reply to  Anthony

No – you’re bang on the money!

you smell great;what is it?
18 years ago

Having just read and graded 17 analyses of “Dover Beach,” five of which insisted the poem took place on a sunny day, I’m over the moon (moon, children, the thing we see at night?)to read a post where someone uses “louche”. Thank you.

As for the gardenias, the only thing I hate more than tuberose is tuberose with, etc. (The Chanel, though. So far I haven’t found a Chanel that hates me, although Bois des Isles sometimes makes me feel like I’m faking. It’s more…something than I am. Some days I’m amplified; others, I can’t catch up.)