Before I start all my whining about Winter let me tell you who won the Brunos!
tam !!! gmail your info to evilauntieanita and I’ll get them out to you.
JanetinCalifornia!!! get your info to me – you won the last go-round of stuff!
Michelle!! from way back in the wayback – I’m still waiting to get your info for Amanda Feeley’s Smoke!!!
Okay – that is it for ‘good news’ Now! On to the bitchin’.
So…..I’m in serious ennui right now. The entire world, outside my window, is white. Walking is an exercise, indeed. Thanks to Yoga for Healthy Aging (and the fabulous Nina Zolotow) I am no longer terrified to set foot outside the house – but the walk to the shop is in Winter is fraught with peril. We’re on a slight rise here (it doesn’t seem like much until it’s covered in slicked-down snow and ice) so getting down that rise is kinda spooky. But I did it, nevermind that I did my level best to sabotage myself (running shoes, Anita? Really?) – but a lot of the balance and breathing work I’ve been doing, via YfHA, has taken away most of the panic. And with that came some confidence (well that and thinking like a penguin). Then, as I am congratulating myself on my short walk, I see a young man bicycling on the icy streets………sigh…….
But…it’s One Foot in Front of the Other right now – that’s about all I can manage. It’s like this every year (and you long-time Posseites can attest to that) – midwinter is bleak as hell for this gal. Which begs the question: WHY AM I STILL IN THE MIDWEST? As I have been asking myself this question for 40 years the only answer I can come up with is I am an indolent moron. Or else it’s like childbirth – once Spring rolls around I forget how horrible Winter can be.
But enough of that. I’m accepting that there are just a few days/weeks where nothing I do will fully dilute the SAD/ennui. The happy light? meh. Exercise? yeah – but ….meh. Mostly I just make a list of to-do’s, get through that list (which makes me feel way less like a loser) and then collapse around 7p. Except when I am looking at House Porn on Pinterest. I was going to ask ‘what on earth did I do before Pinterest?’, then it hit me. I subscribed to – and kept – every US shelter magazine ever published. Silverfish LOVED me! Now I just troll the pages of Pinterest and thrill to the fact that there are other psychopaths like me! Check out this kitchen!
I’m seriously into Renovation now. I’ve cut El O a deal: if he gets the roof guy over here to give us a quote (so I can pretend I have some control over this – budgeting is one of those ‘to do’ things that assuages my Crazy) Do you all get like this? I sure hope at least some of you do – I don’t want to be Winter Crazy all by myself! I keep picking and pecking and peeling away at that poor man (whose only real sin is that he could fix this house with ease, if only he would turn off the TV – you see where this is going? It ain’t pretty).. March can’t get here fast enough!
What do you guys do to keep from losing it, come Winter? Do you raid your cousin’s vanity (as I did) and steal her vintage Chanel No 5thatshehadnotwornfor20+years (that makes it all okay….right? right? RIGHT?)…….do you plant dozens of amaryllis and hyacinths and rejoice in their blooming?
Do you ……..what the hell do you do? You probably do not fantasize about walking around with an automatic shotgun..do you? How do you get through February? TELL A GIRL!!!! WI peeps, Michigan, Boston…O, Canada! I want to hear from all of you! CA & FL? Y’all should just make stuff up! Lemme know how you keep from choking folks in February! I’ll pull a commenter on random …
and I’ll give one of you a leetle bag full of goodies. I promise.
But first…..is anybody else freaked completely out by this …but also secretly wants one?
I feel like grabbing my cape. Or channeling Rod Serling.